Monday, July 03, 2006
I am weak psychologically...
Easily hit emotionally perhaps...
However, compared to last time, I have grown stronger mentally... Though still weak...
Things which i am still not able to put down...
Had a chat with CN... What she said is true though...
Its been long since then...
I like the memories that i had when i was with
HER... Those which she has long forgotten abt...
That i dun wan to put it down...
That she is not the same person she was before...
I am just feeling lonely...
Yeah, I am lonely... but i never resent the fact i am... I do hope that someone is there, whom i can share everything to... I am not si xin yan though... just that i have a good determination... and Long-lasting battery... haha...
Does it matter how she has changed? Its just how u accept that person and compromise... I, too also has changed aint it?
Sometimes i feel i better off alone than i am with others... alone in a world i feel i am more comfortable with...
Happiness seems so momentary to me... Its long since i am feeling really really really happy...
The feeling of being with her... The feeling of winning 3rd in National gymnastics... The feeling of playing in Inter-school bball... mayb a few more?
It seems very long ago though...
This is part of life i guess... Becos life is always not what you would expect it to be... So i accept the facts also... I am moving on in life also... Never standing still...
As of matters of the heart... I have no say in it... It is up to the nature to decide...
Becos its not so easy to say u dun like then u wont like that person... Easier Said Than Done
So i just leave it up to nature, god to decide ba...
Or guess i am just not fated to be loved... haha...
She is still in my heart... but i am not going to say anything abt it ba... Erm... its i cant do anything ba... haha... I am going to live happy also.. cos no one wan to be sad also... She is happy now is all that matters le... She finds a better man or wat, i will be happy also rite... ???? erm... haha...
Somemore theres nothing i can do... If wan to compare with other guys... think i will lose out also... WO TAI XUN le... haha... XUN-_-"
Lol... suddenly thought of this thing... "SI MO GU"... haha CN... tell her then u noe... haha
There is more things that a man has to do other than matters of love... Time to start being a man... haha...
Cannot let others kan bian.... Yao Jia You... GamBaTe...
Posted by Boon at 11:10 PM
