Monday, July 31, 2006
Finally... my com is fixed...
Went to my cousin's house to pick it up and carry it all the way home...
Felt like i lost in touch with the world for this whole week...
Never online... nothing...
I am feeling very tired... woke up at 6am... Awakened by thunder... -.-
Now still doing abit of setting on my pc... then still got one tv drama to watch b4 i can slp...
Not gonna write long... just log in to type something...
mayb tml or wed then write something meaningful or wat...
Watever... we'll see...
Tml will be working though... Zzzz
For the sake of lui...
Posted by Boon at 11:37 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Its late night on saturday again...
Nothing to do... so log in and blog something ba...
My working policy now is off days on weekends which include fridays so that i can go out and enjoy my life... However, things just werent gonna come my way...
I wan to go out!!! but no one to go out with me... Can you believe it? So lonely de lo...
Then if got go out... alot of limitations... Which some dun wan go far or go until very late...
Especially our Tiko Gei... smack him... if he 1 person wan to go home then the rest couldnt possibly just pang seh him then in the end all go home... Bth... tor hui... Come on.. be more spontaneous...
BTW... pls be a bit brave to put ur name at my tag... haha...
Poor Zy... but he deserve it also... wahahaha
So now today i am stuck at home rotting... If like that i would have go work for more money...
$$$, the important factor living in this modern society, especially this fast-paced Singapore...
U cannot live without $$$... Everyone is moving so fast ahead in technology and trean(think wrong spelling)... And me... a slow moving turtle is having a hard time catching up at this fast paced... After having created a big mess in my life when i was 17... I have begun to pick up the bits and pieces in my life to really catch up with this fast paced world...
My image which i long knew just sux... but i have no idea and courage to really go do something abt it... But now i am setting aside resources to do something abt it... Wat can be done? Wat can be changed? Wat can be improved? Wat needs to be removed?
Clothing, specs, hair, face, shoes, behaviour... I hoped someone is there to guide me through... suggestions, opinions or comments...
"It's always better late than never" but sometimes things can just never be late...
I hope i am not late...
I am often a late-comer which many pp perceive me to be... but dun just stamped "confirmed" on me as that...
It just depends on the events, the person that relates to whether its appropriate...
Yes... There is still many things to do in life... I am grateful i still had a chance to do and accomplish things in my life... But is there CHANCE in another particular thing which i have been thinking???
Who noes... God noes...
Singapore is small but i still have not been to alot of places in this little dotz in the world map...
Pathetic pumpkin i am...
Hey ppz... Pls dial my HP to jio me out on weekends... Do it fast... Book me!!!!
HAHA...
Sad soul waiting for call...
Posted by Boon at 1:13 AM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
This entry will be no.21st...
Its been 3 months ever since i started blogging again... i think so...
Went to watch Pirates of Caribbean Dead Man's Chest yesterday night...
It was a very nice show... will recommend pp to watch them... Still got part 3...
Awaiting the show...
The feeling of watching late night show... the atmosphere... Its so great...
Love tt feeling... Hope that there is more chance to have such nice show and atmosphere...
Its back to working today... for money... Went to Ntuc to walk ard after work just now...
Bought myself some things... Happy to be spending a little money... haha...
So fast one day over liao... soon tml will be over...
I wan to go learn car... however sianz...
NS blocks the way... cannot complete in time b4 i enter army...
Money also not happy... block the way... haha...
Wondering when then can i drive my own Beautiful car...?
Definitely after i have a fix and gd income... still long ba i guess...
Nonetheless... Licence will be the priority...
Feel like going overseas again in september b4 i enter army in OCT...
WHO IS INTERESTED?
Now i feel money is not enough... erm... actually is always... lol...
Wan to buy my new phone also... O2 one... but dunno for wat use leh... NS cannot use...
nvm not priority...
Talking abt O2... Ye qing bought new phone sia... Rich girl...
Hope i no need buy... tio the lucky draw then can liao... Then i can get one free O2 phone
Tt will have to dream though... haha...
Quite stressful living in this modern society... So difficult to live without any worries...
But thats the challenge and fun in tackling the all sorts of things that is going to happen in our life...
Learn with each meaningful day...
Posted by Boon at 10:43 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Actually there isnt much to blog...
Nothing much happening in my dotz dotz life... Work and work... Really poor lo yesterday... left 5 bucks... over spent...
Lucky get pay today... $135... keep working... Earn more... then i can have alot more to do in my life... By end of friday shld have $300... hoho... But work more... Hope to have 2k by september after minusing the daily spendings... and enjoyment...
But tt is really "Sweat-Blood" money... Everyday work like coolie like tt... carry here carry there... Hotel really @#$%#... Save money until like tt... wan to turnover one big ballroom onli got me one guy carrying all tables, stages and chairs... Everyday work finish, i smelt so smelly...
Today went to SB to find her... Got a treat of an ice coffee she made... never ask her the name of tt... and a blueberry muffin... which she is already sick of it... just have a short moment of chat with her while she had a 20min break... After that went off ard 9.30pm... to let her work...
She is still working now i guess... until late night...
There is many things i still gotta accomplish... There is no use of working hard if you dun believe in urself... Be confident...
Posted by Boon at 12:31 AM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
5years...Tml will be her bday and it is the day when i reached wat i have promised her b4...
5years... Been classmates, been 2gether, had happy times, heart-breaking times,and guess am a nobody to her now...
Ironically, out of the many bdays she has had, from the day i knew her... I have only truely celebrated for her once on the 10th itself...in 2003
She has forgotten abt it i guess... Wish that she is happy on her every coming bdays...
Her coming bday be flourished with presents...
Yesterday i was unable to sleep again... laid from 1am to 4+ then i could doze off... Now onli 7.20am i woke up le... couldnt sleep again...
I came to find myself very useless... a weakling now...
I never accomplished anything ever since sec sch...
Academic wise, my results just wasnt gd in poly... No hardwork put in...
Physically, i am very weak now...
Easily hit emotionally like a gu niang...
Relationship failed too...
Keep whining and sighing...
So what have i been living ard for? Been searching for ans... Guess it shld be to search back my ownself... The fighting spirit... the confidence... Undying self motivation...
Childhood dreams maybe considered dreams to many... I wish i can realise mine... but guess it will be dreams in this society...
What do u aspire to be when u are young?
I wish to be a great sportsman when i was young... But it will be always a dream...
I wanted to be a basketball player playing in NBA... A short guy like me will never fulfill that dream... Even if i am really really that gifted, shorty like me wont be able to make it i guess...
Dreamt to be a gymnast representing singapore and winning medals too... Part of the reason i transferred to Riverside... Did won two 3rds for the sch in my first year... But this dream is far-fetched as well...
Now i yearn to be a F1 driver... Even more unreachable isnt it...
How many pp can really realise the childhood dream they have... I am not chosen to be the lucky ones...
Its time to do something abt myself... Time to really really grow up...
Posted by Boon at 7:12 AM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Yesterday was my graduation ceremony...
Wear smartly and attended the ceremony and received my Diploma after 3 years of education in SP...
After the ceremony, we had photo taking sessions... Everyone was taking photos... Hopefully i get those pics from them then i could post it here... I think everyone had a great time...
JJ was our top student... He rightfully deserved that as he had really put in hard work all 3 years in his study... Congrats to him...
Looking at my own results just make me sigh... Shld have put in more hard work to study too... Guess i played too much...
If any of my university application is accepted next year or whenever, i will put in hard work to study well...
After the ceremony, had a little gathering with sec school mates... 10 of us...
Ate at Cafe Cartel... I was the last to reach and my order came after they had all eaten finish...
So stress while i was eating, haha... All waiting for me...
I wore formally and they said i looked like insurance agent... haha... Keep saying they dun wan to buy from me... lol...
There were full of jokes... Definitely with the presence of our joker king Joshie...
There was this chio bu who they were discussing abt.... True, that girl was very chio... She sat on the table beside us... haha...
We went for pool after that, follow by a movie entitled " Thank You For Smoking"...
The whole movie was speeches all the way, without much actions-packed... If you have a good command of english, you might enjoy the whole movie... My command of Eng Ge Ren was average so i only could understand as much as i could... Josh enjoyed the show very much... Laughing most of the time... At one pt i fell aslp... haha... Partly becos i was tired...
Basically, we all had a great time hanging out... Its been some time since we had a gathering...
Hope the next gathering come soon...
Posted by Boon at 9:35 AM
Monday, July 03, 2006
I am weak psychologically...
Easily hit emotionally perhaps...
However, compared to last time, I have grown stronger mentally... Though still weak...
Things which i am still not able to put down...
Had a chat with CN... What she said is true though...
Its been long since then...
I like the memories that i had when i was with
HER... Those which she has long forgotten abt...
That i dun wan to put it down...
That she is not the same person she was before...
I am just feeling lonely...
Yeah, I am lonely... but i never resent the fact i am... I do hope that someone is there, whom i can share everything to... I am not si xin yan though... just that i have a good determination... and Long-lasting battery... haha...
Does it matter how she has changed? Its just how u accept that person and compromise... I, too also has changed aint it?
Sometimes i feel i better off alone than i am with others... alone in a world i feel i am more comfortable with...
Happiness seems so momentary to me... Its long since i am feeling really really really happy...
The feeling of being with her... The feeling of winning 3rd in National gymnastics... The feeling of playing in Inter-school bball... mayb a few more?
It seems very long ago though...
This is part of life i guess... Becos life is always not what you would expect it to be... So i accept the facts also... I am moving on in life also... Never standing still...
As of matters of the heart... I have no say in it... It is up to the nature to decide...
Becos its not so easy to say u dun like then u wont like that person... Easier Said Than Done
So i just leave it up to nature, god to decide ba...
Or guess i am just not fated to be loved... haha...
She is still in my heart... but i am not going to say anything abt it ba... Erm... its i cant do anything ba... haha... I am going to live happy also.. cos no one wan to be sad also... She is happy now is all that matters le... She finds a better man or wat, i will be happy also rite... ???? erm... haha...
Somemore theres nothing i can do... If wan to compare with other guys... think i will lose out also... WO TAI XUN le... haha... XUN-_-"
Lol... suddenly thought of this thing... "SI MO GU"... haha CN... tell her then u noe... haha
There is more things that a man has to do other than matters of love... Time to start being a man... haha...
Cannot let others kan bian.... Yao Jia You... GamBaTe...
Posted by Boon at 11:10 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Man are so vulnerable...
Physically or emotionally... It is so easy to be wounded...
Physical wounds can be healed, but a scar will be left behind...
Emotional wounds... there is no certainty that it can be healed... and the scar will be always there...
Where a person is hurt tremendously upon his/her mental ability.... How long is it going to take him/her to recover? months? years? 1 year? 5 years? 10 years?
Ever experience the feeling of emotional heartache and physical heartache? Which one is more unbearable? If u can choose, which one would u like to experience...
Both are unbearable... but emotional heartache is a combination of all... may result in physical wounds too...
How does it feels to be alone?
You have so much in mind to say, yet there is not one person u feel u can speak to... all the things( happiness, sadness, troubles) stuffed in the mind... There is no one to share to... the feeling of helplessness appears once more...
You can only keep talking to your own mind and keep asking lots of question.... but you wont get any answers...
Daylight is out... sky starting to brighten up...
Happy moments are always short... ( Tian xia wu bu san zi yan xi)
The time when happy moments gathers will end somehow...
Be happy when there is... dun sigh when it ends...
Had quite a few gatherings recently with the girls and guyz... ktv, mahjong & world cup session, movie... Has seen her a few more times becos of that... I have been nicknamed "The Pian Zi" by them... for winning their money... dotz dotz for that...
Never expect myself to step into her house again and to see her family...
Saw the La pi xiao xin i gave her... The puzzle of beauty and the beast that i made for her on the wall...
Happy that she likes them...
Reminds me of the many things i did and the happy times and sad times in the past... but that doesnt matter isnt it... The fact that she is living happily now is all that matters...
Guess she has patched up with that guy... envy him... hope he treats her well too...
Have seen many cases where couples break up and patch up...
I never had the chance to patch up... No matter how much i love her... how much i will treasure her ... no matter how i have changed...
Perhaps its still that sentence ba... She is happy is all that matters...
Misunderstandings, quarrels, disagreement... all these can happen so easily...
But to resolve them is so difficult...
To all... Dun let small misunderstandings become big ones... resolve when it is still able to... dun assume anything... Assumptions is the beginning of all misunderstandings...
The end of a boring blog... by a boring person... Life has to go on...
Posted by Boon at 6:31 AM
