Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Today will be my 5th entry...
My 6th sense is very accurate... haiz... it really is true... I got condemned...
Zzz.. For nothing which i did wrong... I truly dun understand why... I dunno what to do... She will stop my every move... even a simple call... cant get it why it is like tt...
Not feeling sad or upset... I just dun get it... BU LIAO JIE!!!
Maybe I am a naive person... thoughts are not so complicated ba...
It takes a lot of effort to be able to understand someone... Maybe effort are just something stupid?
Actually there is alot on the mind... but just dunno how to write it out...
Is sincerity important? Or maybe tt some people has just given up on them...
Is it really no turnback for those who has done wrong in the past? Is there really no way out for them? No matter how sincere there are?
Dun think i will get answers on the questions i have... there are still alot in my mind...
Its very difficult living... but thats where we encountered our various happenings in our life... Happiness,sadness and so on...
To her i got so many many to say... but didnt have a single single chance to really express to her... Everyday i will think of her... as and when she will just pass by the brain... kaoz...
free will lo... win liao... not able to stop one...
tts how virus works in computer... lol... joking...
Just wan to say... A chance to really communicate with her will do... Dun treat me so harsh la... i not some ghost or some devil from hell... I am a human with a sincere heart... tu bom tu bom... heard tt? :D
Dun run further away... i am trying to climb to the stage which you are standing now...
ok la... today did the normal things which we usually do... pool... bball... went home...
and using the com as i am doing now... got to use the com onli since just now ard 3.30am... both bros hugging the com...
Recently i am into animations... all of them are Japanese animations... Example Naruto, One piece, Inuyasha and so on... some of them never watch completely... some start halfway or watch halfway onli... Watching these animations, i get alot of inspiration from them...
Be confident in oneself... if not there is nothing worth working hard for...
Be determined in whatever you do...
2 examples of what i learned in watching Naruto...
its nice watching animation...
i downloaded quite a few songs... some songs which i previously downloaded b4 rebooting...
oh ya,want to put up song on this blog... but dunno how... and dunno how to clear the blank on top of my info... hope someone can give some tips...
Recently i dreamt of her, like 3 times liao for the past 2 weeks... different stories in each dream...
dunno tonight will dream of her or not...
later will be going to take pay... 60bucks... heheh...
ok la enough le...
Posted by Boon at 3:26 AM
Monday, May 29, 2006
Stay at home for the whole day today... nothing much abt today...
did some changes for this blog... played some games and watched some tv shows...
kinda boring izzit it?
went ard browsing a few of my friends' blogs... checking out how they have been recently....
so fast this month ending le... time really flies fast...
sianz...
My hair growing long le... come back genting then go cut...
hmmm... still deciding tml or tuesday then go take pay...
oh ya... my watch spoilt le... :(
sianz... like alot of things spoilt recently... dun understand...
ok then... nothing much to write abt... tts abt it today...
Posted by Boon at 12:17 AM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Came back home just now ard 11.20pm... a hectic day outside...
Went to Sentosa today... A place for relaxing...
I, Dingli and Chin Yee went to ICA building in the morning before we met up with the rest at Harbourfront Hawker centre... they need to update their passport for next week's trip to Genting... Suppose to meet at 9am... but me and CY woke up at 9... lol...
By the time we reached Lavender and finished the updating, it was 12.05pm...
a long queue today... we reached harbourfront and we took our meal... i ate 2 plates of food and a big glass of sugar cane juice... was very hungry at tt time...
We went to Siloso beach... played dodge ball, frisby(wrong spelling), soccer, boomerang and sand... have a little cut on my toe on the left foot when playing soccer...
Then there was this moment when our god, Shen Pek , kicked the ball and it got stucked up on the coconut tree... we used quite alot of effort to retrieve the ball... haha... damn funny
He also cannot play boomerang... will hit other pp... haha...
Saw alot of couples relaxing on the beaches and having their own beautiful moments enbouldered into their memories... envy them...
I recalled alot of things in the past with HER while i was sitting alone on the beach... Miss her alot... haiz... The beautiful memories i recalled was so real and yet so far beyond my reach... the feeling of helplessness... I have tried communicating with her... wish to understand her... concern abt her... and of course not
interferring in her life...
However, it never works... Am ever hoping tt she could just have a nice chat with me...
Maybe she find me
irritating and
interfering with her life...
No, i did not... I will give anything tt she wants... regardless of what and with the best of my abilities...
I know LOVE is a very complicated matter... its abt the feeling of a person... and so i respect whatever she wants... i wan to try once more to let her trust me again... She knows my character... am i tt bad a person? And if i really fail, i would accept it... however reality always opposes wishful thoughts...
Acceptance and compromise is needed in a relationship... Communication is very important in building and sustaining the good relationship...
haiz... I have thought of alot and alot...
She is main character... she calls all the decision...
Most important thing is she is happy doing whatever thing...
got the feeling she condemned me... haiz...
Bomb and LCG went back early... ard 4 plus and we stay till ard 9... and went for dinner then took 963 straight back to Woodlands...
Next week booking is full... great i cant work... No income for next week... I got alot of things to buy leh...
My BIG REVOLUTION is on going man...
Look to the sky and grab your dreams... Work towards it...
Never dying Phoenix revive everyday... Never-dying spirit...
Posted by Boon at 12:59 AM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Saturday, 27th of May Year 2006How do u differentiate right from wrong?
Everybody has their own definition of right from wrong in their mind... However, sometimes u wont know tt u are doing the wrong things when u mind thought tt u are doing it the correct way... problem is when u noe u have done something wrong, do u repent? do u think abt it and learn from the lesson? Life is learning lesson,which i put in my msn nick... learn and grow from the wrongs and do not make the same stupid mistakes again...
Above are part of the things which i enlightened myself from the past... things which i did wrong... and the mindset of a guy whom now has grown mature enough to think before doing something... dun make another grave mistake which will err my own life...
Sold my bike... kiss goodbye to my companion and hope he serve his new master well... and hopefully his new master treats him well...
One thing off my mind... one less thing, one less trouble on my mind... my parents are relief that i did sell it...
Today i feel quite lethargic... have the feeling of dozing off... went out at early noon to settle the matter on the bike... came home and took a nap... and went out in the evening to meet my friends (zhu peng gou you)... haha
We went to Choa Chu Kang(cck) to play pool after having a short session of meal and cock-talking...
Saw Dingli new MP3 player(512MB $149)... Great, i have succumbed to temptations and now i wan to buy one too... LCG told me IT roadshow coming at suntec... OMG... need to splash out money again... Pocket going to empty again... Have to work harder for money...
I am going earn big bucks next time... as what alot of pp wish to also...
I am going let myself, my future wife and my family(parents included) have a gd life next time...
Friends wont be forgotten... haha...
If i open company, 10k for daven to be chaffeur... wahahaha...
Went to see Yuan's, Des's and LCG's blogs... and of course someone's else too... yuan blog funny... he is now officially a member of Woodlands new party... The rise of a new era, The AGPs, the gathering of the Gods... Yuan will be the illustrator the party... depicting the activites of the party and the job of each of the party members... Lord the the gods ( Shen pao), master of all beasts... whahaha...
Later will be going to Lavender with our Drug Master, Dingli, to renew his passport before heading for sentosa...
So next entry will be here soon...
Posted by Boon at 2:37 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
so long never blog le... last time got blog for abt a month like tt... haha...
got so many things in my mind to bother abt... haiz... life sux isnt it...
trying my best to brighten it up again... to light it up with many colours... a world worth living...
will be embarking on my journey of Botakness on 6th of Oct... still far isnt it...
but in fact it wont be... time flies past in a just a twink of our eyes... so fast i have graduated from SP... and many things have happened in my life...
i am already 20 liao... next moment it will 22 when i ORD... time waits for no one... make full use of our lives when we still can... cherish ur loved ones...
tml will be selling my bike of 1 yr 4 months... a heavy loss of 1.3k...
but at least one thing off my mind liao... less one thing to bother abt...
next week going to genting... singapore sale is coming... need alot of money... $$$... have to work... have to be very hardworking...
my contact lense spoilt le... zzz... onli use for abt 10 or 11 days... sianz 1/2... have to buy again...
however all these wont be as impt as the main thing i wan to bother abt... haiz...
The main character in my story... the Zhu jiao of my life...
everyday is a brand new day... be happy!!!!
Posted by Boon at 10:21 PM
