Sunday, July 09, 2006
5years...Tml will be her bday and it is the day when i reached wat i have promised her b4...
5years... Been classmates, been 2gether, had happy times, heart-breaking times,and guess am a nobody to her now...
Ironically, out of the many bdays she has had, from the day i knew her... I have only truely celebrated for her once on the 10th itself...in 2003
She has forgotten abt it i guess... Wish that she is happy on her every coming bdays...
Her coming bday be flourished with presents...
Yesterday i was unable to sleep again... laid from 1am to 4+ then i could doze off... Now onli 7.20am i woke up le... couldnt sleep again...
I came to find myself very useless... a weakling now...
I never accomplished anything ever since sec sch...
Academic wise, my results just wasnt gd in poly... No hardwork put in...
Physically, i am very weak now...
Easily hit emotionally like a gu niang...
Relationship failed too...
Keep whining and sighing...
So what have i been living ard for? Been searching for ans... Guess it shld be to search back my ownself... The fighting spirit... the confidence... Undying self motivation...
Childhood dreams maybe considered dreams to many... I wish i can realise mine... but guess it will be dreams in this society...
What do u aspire to be when u are young?
I wish to be a great sportsman when i was young... But it will be always a dream...
I wanted to be a basketball player playing in NBA... A short guy like me will never fulfill that dream... Even if i am really really that gifted, shorty like me wont be able to make it i guess...
Dreamt to be a gymnast representing singapore and winning medals too... Part of the reason i transferred to Riverside... Did won two 3rds for the sch in my first year... But this dream is far-fetched as well...
Now i yearn to be a F1 driver... Even more unreachable isnt it...
How many pp can really realise the childhood dream they have... I am not chosen to be the lucky ones...
Its time to do something abt myself... Time to really really grow up...
Posted by Boon at 7:12 AM
